Mr. Goodbar, Hershey's, and Krackle are always the first ones gone from the candy dish. Everyone leaves the Special Dark there to feel anything but special. Hunh..... they don't know what I know. There is something about that Special Dark that kicks my body into overdrive, and I acquired the taste for it the first time I tasted it. I love the way it dances on my lips as I fight the urge to put the whole thing in my mouth instead of savoring the taste.
As it touches my tongue, I start to salivate as it experiences pure pleasure. I have to admit, my teeth get a little jealous because I have mastered the art of consuming the chocolate without using my teeth at all. I always make sure the roof of my mouth gets to enjoy the chocolate before I clamp down on it and suck all of the flavor from it. The most satisfying thing about the Special Dark is when it begins to slide down my throat as I gag just a little bit before swallowing it all.
They say dark chocolate is good for your health and I believe it because I feel healthy everytime I taste it. My grandma used to say that Special Dark was the best kind of chocolate there was. Of course, as a kid, I really couldn't appreciate what she was trying to tell me. I thought she was crazy and couldn't imagine why she thought that semisweet piece of candy was better than all the rest. Now, I am a grown ass woman and I know exactly what she meant.
Sometimes when I am home alone, I get the taste for that piece of Special Dark to calm my nerves. Sure milk chocolate and white chocolate and even caramel are all good flavors and I do get the taste for them every now and then but if I had to choose a favorite, the Special Dark would win every time.
My favorite quote from the brilliant Audre Lorde says, ” If I didn’t define myself for myself, I would be crunched into other people’s fantasies for me and eaten alive.” I love this quote because anyone who knows me knows that I truly dance to the beat of my own drum and play by my own rules. I can’t imagine living by someone else’s definition of me, that wouldn’t be fun at all. After all, isn’t having fun one of the main reasons for living?
I have been on this earth for 43 years and have been through a few wars. When I share my story with people, they are amazed that I am still standing and still sane. Sometimes I can’t believe it myself, but sanity is a matter of perspective. How sane can one really be when they prefer to refer to oneself in 3rd person?? All I know is, but for the grace of God, I am still standing. I have a wonderful support network of friends and family who have held me up when I felt like I couldn’t do it myself. Now here I am, 43 years old, divorced and two years from becoming an empty nester. Life is just beginning for me.
I chose to blog as Ms. Kiesha and Dr .Kiesha 2U because much like the characters in Robert Louis Stevenson’s “Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde”, I am not two separate personalities living in the same body. I am one person who allows her alter ego, Ms. Kiesha, to unapologetically be who she is.
I hope my readers will enjoy getting to know me through blogging as I begin to open up and share my journey from Ms. Kiesha to Dr. Kiesha 2U.